Tests, tests, and more tests. Today begins our journey. One that neither of us had asked for. Gosh I'm scared. I'm exhausted.
I am bouncing back and forth between just about every emotion in the book, all within minutes. And it just keeps cycling.
Right now, I feel numb.
I have my bone marrow biopsy today. Friday I have my PETscan. Monday I see my Oncologist, and I'll find out the game plan: what stage cancer I'm in, if it's spread, and when I start the big C (Chemotherapy.)
I try to keep reminding myself that no matter how bad it'll suck (and things WILL suck) - that I will go into remission and then it'll be over. My fiance and I will still get married, and live long lives together.
I try to keep reminding myself that everything really does happen for a reason.
I try to keep reminding myself that life really is beautiful. It's good. I am grateful. Despite all this crap going on.
I try to keep reminding myself to remain positive and optimistic.
I am NOT alone.
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